After I wasn’t cast in We’ve Met Before, I decided to pour my energy into a creative outlet that was constructive, rather than continue to analyze why I didn’t get the part.

The result of that creative process is 1958, a photo shoot that aims to take Twilight fans beyond We’ve Met Before. It offers a glimpse of Alice and Jasper’s honeymoon as I’ve imagined it: a slice of Americana as the newlywed vampires revisit the spots they frequented while they fell in love.

They end their journey at Finch’s Diner in Philadelphia, with Alice pledging to keep looking toward their forever, rather than remember the time she spent waiting.


Vik's Edits-60This isn’t 1948. This isn’t We’ve Met Before. This is 1958, and I am no longer waiting.

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Hi, ladies:

Readers have been asking for a long time – like, for a really long time – for an Alice Cullen makeup tutorial. I’ve been upfront about the fact that I don’t feel I’m good enough with makeup to offer a tutorial of any kind. I mean, my own makeup for Alice is barely passable – why would I try to advise others to look like that?!

But here’s where the awesomeness of the Alice Cullen Costuming community comes in!

jessicaalice2One of my favourite Alice Cullen cosplayers, Jessica – known to the Twilight community as FTF Alice – was kind enough to put a tutorial together for Alice’s Twilight look. Jessica has some serious cosplay pedigree: not only is she hosting Forever Twilight in Forks this September, she’s been portraying Alice in Forks since 2009. So when I say she’s an expert, believe me – she knows the character inside and out, and we’re lucky to have that expertise!

In her tutorial, Jessica touches on a number of great points, including choosing makeup that’s right for your skin tone, how to mimic Alice’s small features, and the most important thing of all: how to safely obtain and wear contacts as Alice Cullen. So if you’re interested in re-creating Alice’s ethereal Twilight look, you’re now officially covered by an Alice who’s approved by the city of Forks.

Check out Jessica’s video below!


Well, after months of tireless campaigning, I didn’t get a role in The Storytellers: New Voices of The Twilight Saga.

I was fortunate enough to be able to audition for two of the Alice-focused productions: The Mary Alice Brandon File and We’ve Met Before. Formal auditions aren’t something I’ve done since high school, and I’ve had little to no traditional acting experience since then, so the process was a little frightening. It involved taping myself reading from each script and hoping that I’d touched on something that both directors wanted to see.

I was happy with both of my auditions. In watching them again, of course, there are things that I see in retrospect – things that I wish I’d done differently or interpreted another way. But that’s just how acting goes, I think: something can feel absolutely right in the moment and then seem off when you have the benefit of hindsight. But for someone who isn’t an actor, I thought I did well in showcasing my understanding of Alice’s character.

Here’s where I made my mistake: I thought that because I’ve played Alice in the fandom for a number of years, I’d be an obvious choice – or at least a frontrunner – for The Storytellers. And from what I was told by both directors, I was, in fact, highly considered. But at the end of the day, event experience in Forks isn’t the same as on-screen experience or technical acting chops. Being able to look, sound and act the part in Forks doesn’t mean you fit a director’s vision of what they’re hoping to see in a short film. And, from a purely logistical standpoint, being thousands of miles away from where the films will actually be shot is a hindrance. Especially if said films are 10 minute productions with very small budgets.

So, was I upset when I learned I didn’t make the cut? Of course. I’ve been following The Storytellers since it was announced late in 2014. The concept and what it was hoping to accomplish by nurturing women in film really spoke to me. I put a lot of time and energy into auditioning, liaising with directors and fans, and just generally trying to put myself out there. In general, I thought I was making life a lot easier for these directors.

“Here I am!” I practically screamed into the void of the Internet. “I already play Alice, I work exceptionally hard, and I’d do it for FREE, if that’s what you needed! Cast me!”

But, you know, sometimes hard work isn’t enough. Sometimes loving something isn’t enough. Sometimes your experienced or the people you know or WHATEVER isn’t enough.

And that’s okay.

For months, I tied my idea of self worth up into this contest. I felt like my role as Alice for Forks would be somehow diminished if I wasn’t cast. I felt like I would be letting a dream I’ve had since 2008 slip through my fingers. I felt like I’d be a failure. And I’m not.

Why? Because I tried. I took myself so completely out of my comfort zone just by auditioning that I consider that to be an achievement in and of itself. I can’t even play charades without feeling deeply uncomfortable, and there I was, COMPLETELY putting myself out there for the judgment of directors and their team. And not only did I try – I got personalized responses and feedback in return. In the world of acting, I’ve been told that’s golden. And even if I didn’t get either part, it did feel good, in the end.

The one thing I’m still struggling to let go of is my own sense of entitlement. I keep picturing a plethora of random actresses auditioning for Alice just because it would be a job and a credit – actresses who may not have read Twilight or may even have mocked it in the past. I keep imagining that an actress who doesn’t understand or like Twilight fans got the role. I keep thinking, “fans know and like me as Alice – doesn’t that count for something?”

At the end of the day? Not really.

Here’s what I keep reminding myself:

  • You got an opportunity, even though Twilight events are your only experience. That’s more than a lot of inexperienced actresses can say.
  • The directors gave you a fair chance. They don’t owe you anything. They didn’t even owe you THAT. Just be grateful you got the opportunity.
  • Sometimes, it just doesn’t work. Whether it’s logistics or the directors having someone specific in mind, there are a million reasons why ANY actor may not have been cast, even if you nailed your audition.

And here’s the positive that I need to focus on:

  • Again: YOU GOT NOT ONE BUT TWO AUDITIONS. And you were the only Alice cosplayer, to your knowledge, to get them!
  • You got personalized acknowledgement from BOTH sets of directors! Directors who don’t like your audition or who weren’t seriously considering you don’t write you back. The end.
  • Twilight fans were incredibly supportive throughout this process, and they’ll continue to be supportive. That doesn’t stop just because you weren’t cast.
  • Let’s face it: You came out of your shell to do this. And that’s a good thing.

So where do we go from here? Up, as always. To St. Helens, home of the first Twilight film, with friends this summer. Back to Forks in September. Because Twilight isn’t over, and I am not a failure.


If you want something badly enough, at some point, you have to be willing to reach out and take it. So here I am, stating it outright: I want to play Alice Cullen in The Storytellers: New Voices of The Twilight Saga.

The competition, aimed to create film making opportunities for female directors and screenwriters, is an interesting one. Hosted by Tongal and Lions Gate Films, as well as curated by a panel of accomplished female filmmakers and actresses – including the likes of Stephenie Meyer, Kristen Stewart, and Octavia Spencer – it’s an opportunity for Twilight fans to truly step into the fictional universe they’ve enjoyed for so long. Using The Twilight Saga: The Official Illustrated Guide as a basis, it’s also an opportunity to take an unexplored aspect of Twilight, flesh it out, and make it canon.

And, if you’re someone like me – who was been unofficially been portraying a character from The Twilight Saga for years – it’s a chance to take your passion to the next level.

There are three screenplays featuring Alice that were selected by the judges. One follows Alice through her shock treatment therapy as she forgets the most horrifying aspects of her human life; one takes a look at her transformation into a vampire and the gentlemanly groundskeeper who fought to protect her; and one explores Alice’s first meeting with Jasper in a Philadelphia diner. That means three separate looks at her early life, three separate interpretations of the character, and yes – three different actresses bringing Alice to life in new and exciting ways.

And it would be a dream come true to be one of them.

So, since there’s nothing like a little shameless self promotion – something that many women, myself included, struggle with – here are the five reasons I should portray Alice Cullen in #TwilightStories. And, since I’ve met so many amazing people within the Twilight fandom, I’ve asked a few of them to provide their honest opinions of my portrayal of Alice, which I’ve shared here as well.

When I read a book, my mind automatically starts conjuring up what the people in it look like. This seemed especially true for the character Alice, and I had a lot of opinions of how she should be. So imagine to my surprise the first time I got to meet Vee and be pleasantly surprised by the pure energy that vibrated off of her. People don’t often live up to the hype that I place on the character in my mind, but Vee was definitely an exception. She brings such joy, thoughtfulness, and life to Alice that it radiates. Not only does she bring those qualities to her portrayal, but Vee brings little quips to the character that so many wouldn’t pick up on in the same way. I honestly cannot imagine someone else being able to personify a character in the same way that Vee has been able to.

– Melissa R., Stephenie Meyer Day and The Cullens’ Winter Escape attendee

alicejasper1. WE’VE MET BEFORE
And by that, I mean I’ve done this before. I’ve been professionally portraying Alice Cullen since 2013 and have been featured as part of the Olympic Coven, the world’s premier Twilight acting troupe, at the following events:

  • Stephenie Meyer Day – 2013
  • Mystic Falls at Twilight Girls Getaway – 2014
  • Stephenie Meyer Day – 2014
  • The Cullens’ Winter Escape – 2015
  • Forever Twilight in Forks – 2015

Being part of the Olympic Coven isn’t just a matter of dressing up as a character and responding to their name for a weekend. You need to carry yourself like that character; you need to craft your sentences to match the way they would speak; and you need to have an unparalleled understanding of their history in order to realize them in a real world setting. It’s similar to playing a Disney Princess at Disneyland.

We may not be on a screen or a stage, but it’s one of those situations where all the world’s a stage. If I can portray Alice Cullen across the length of a weekend, using acting and improvisational skills to adapt to just about any situation, I feel confident in my ability to bring her to life for a five to ten minute short.

Vee is the perfect person to play Alice Cullen. When I think of the character that Stephenie Meyer was describing in her books, Vee embodies her character perfectly. Not just anyone can play Alice, and it takes much more than just looking like her. The first time I met her while in Forks Washington, it was a surreal experience. It was like Alice had stepped off the page of the book, and was standing right in front of me. Not only does she look like her, she is tiny and pixie-like, just how you would imagine Alice would be. She makes you feel like a child again, where for a moment you are able to make believe that your favorite character exists. For those that are fans of the Twilight Series, meeting Vee is truly a gift, and she definitely merges fantasy with reality.

– Alisa L., Stephenie Meyer Day attendee


When I realized that I had no video content that demonstrated my ability to be in character as Alice, I created it. After all, no one was going to cast me on moxie alone – “I swear, I’m a good Alice!” – so I had to prove that I could fully become the character. I knew I wanted to create a YouTube series, but I needed a reason for Alice to be talking directly to a camera and a way to excuse my low budget set up. Dear Bella was the answer to that. Through a video diary format, it allowed me to explore Alice’s thoughts, feelings, and motivations during key points during The Twilight Saga – content that we’ve never actually seen.

The Twilight fandom is all about those “missing moments.” It’s part of the reason why fan fiction exists; people want to experience the story they love from new and unexplored perspectives. The feedback I’ve received from this project has been extremely positive, and I feel it has demonstrated not only my understanding of Alice’s character, but my ability to become her, as well.

I’ve had people tell me that when they watched Dear Bella, they felt like they were Bella; like I was their best friend and I was speaking directly to them. That makes me happier than I can express. That makes me feel like, as Alice, I’ve done my job.

When I first saw ‘Alice Cullen’ at SMD 2013, I was impressed with how close she was to Alice in looks and behavior. She is petite. She is very energetic, as ‘Alice’ and as herself. I’ve seen her interact with Twilight fans and her Olympic Coven cast mates. She has played off of both very well. Teasing with ‘Emmett’. Put out by ‘Bella’s’ poor fashion sense. Playful at times with the fans and ‘Jasper.’ Also open and friendly with fans. Her recent ‘Dear Bella’ videos are an excellent showcase of a wider range of situations and expressions. I highly recommend her to be ‘Alice’ for any of the Storyteller films.

– Pam R., Stephenie Meyer Day and The Cullens’ Winter Escape attendee


I don’t look like Ashley Greene – I’m not shy in admitting that. There are stylistic similarities, as my hair and wardrobe as Alice are inspired by the abundance of visual references from The Twilight Saga, but fundamentally, we don’t look alike. And that’s okay, because Ashley’s interpretation of the character was just that: an interpretation. Another actress may have played her differently. Another actress may have had different hair, or different wardrobe options, to suit their facial structure and body types. It’s also unlikely that any director chosen for The Storytellers would be searching for an Ashley Greene lookalike to portray Alice – not when the franchise has been there and done that.

So, no, I don’t look like Ashley Greene. But I do look like Alice Cullen.

No, I’m not espousing the virtues of my “unearthly beauty.” Give me a break. What I’m saying is that I have extremely small bone structure, I’m very slender, and I’m short. I have black hair, dark brown eyes, and angular features. I’m most often described – sometimes to my annoyance – as a “pixie” or an “elf” or, the worst, as “tiny.” I carry myself gracefully. My voice is high pitched. I look young – dependent on styling, often up to 10 years younger than I actually am.

So, potential directors, you could cast some 5-foot-10 stunner to play Alice. Or you could cast me, the girl whose favourite piece of jewelry is a charm bracelet from when she was seven years old. Because children’s trinkets are the only things that don’t fall off my baby-sized bones. Literally. My wrist is smaller than the average two year old’s.

I guess if I’m not cast as Alice, I could always model for Gap Kids.

Vee not only takes great care in her costumes, wigs and make-up to portray her character, but she brings to life the very essence of Alice Cullen. She puts herself directly into the characters shoes (literally & figuratively), feels what Alice would feel, says what Alice would say, and stays true to the character in every sense and manner imaginable. She has brought to life one of my favorite characters from Twilight in such an indescribable way. She draws fans in immediately and intimately and can often do so simply through a glance.

She makes others feel so comfortable and at home with her. She is creative and ever so imaginative and invents new and exciting ways to interact with her fans. One great example are her “Dear Bella” episodes. I am forever grateful for all of the time, energy, money and dedication she has put into her cosplay, developing her fan base, and interacting with us all. I am truly in awe of her as a person, as a cosplayer, and of course, as my Alice Cullen.

– Kathryn R., Stephenie Meyer Day and The Cullens’ Winter Escape attendee



For me, my role as Alice doesn’t end when I leave an event. The Twilight fandom thrives on human connection, and I work hard year-round to maintain that with the people I meet at each event. I have an Alice Facebook profile that’s separate from my real life profile, and a separate, public “fan page” where anyone who’s interested can stay up-to-date on what I’m doing. In addition to that, I have the backing of the Olympic Coven’s social media pages behind me. At the time of writing this, my social media presence is:

Not including all of the Twilight fan and event pages that know me and enjoy my portrayal of Alice, that’s a reach of 11,109 Twilight fans. And this is a competition that’s contingent on fan voting. With $100,000 on the line, every director in the competition will be thinking strategically, and things like reach and opportunity for promotion will undoubtedly come into play.

In my opinion – whether it’s me or not – this is why it’s important to include Twilight fans in each production wherever possible. They understand the fandom, and the fandom wants to see one of their own succeed. Don’t forget: the Twilight fandom is the reason E.L. James has sold 100 million copies of Fifty Shades of Grey.

So would I use my social presence to campaign for a short film I was involved with? Absolutely. Tirelessly. Happily.

Alice knows the potential in people–both good and evil–because of her gift of foresight making her a person who could be jaded or fearful but chooses to layer beauty onto everything she does, and Vee has taken this piece of Alice and used it in her work with the Olympic Coven both during events and in maintaining their online presence with class and a subtle humor that comes through everything she does without pretense.

Vee has an aura of youth about her, as well as a sense that she might be much older in mind than her outer appearance would suggest, which really completes this picture of Alice Cullen that you get when you see her and speak to her in costume–she’s human, but otherworldly, and brings to enthusiastic life the glittering world of Twilight in a seamless manner many cosplayers–myself included–would love to be able to do with the same amount of seemingly unconscious ease.

– Tiffany A., Stephenie Meyer Day and The Cullens’ Winter Escape Attendee



Last but certainly not least: I am a fan of Twilight. I love Alice Cullen. I adore the fictional world that Stephenie Meyer created. And in some way, I would love to pay homage to that on a grand scale.

Although I can and do act, I am not an actress. Not by profession. In expressing an interest in this project, I’m not thinking of Twilight as a launching pad for something larger. I’m not an actress who dislikes Twilight but sees the opportunity associated with being involved with the franchise. No; I’m a character actress. Specifically, I’m an Alice Cullen character actress, and I’ve dedicated hundreds of hours of time – and my own money – to bring her to life for Twilight fans.

If I’m cast in The Storytellers: New Voices of The Twilight Saga, you aren’t just getting an actress. You’re getting my unbridled love for the character, my dedication to bringing her to life, and my desire to see the project succeed. At the risk of rejection and ridicule, I’ve campaigned tirelessly via social media and my blog. I created Dear Bella in response to directors asking for footage of my interpretation of Alice. At the risk of looking arrogant or self absorbed, I’ve created this blog post. And I’ve decided that I’m not going to worry about the perception or what may people think of me as a result.

Why? Because this competition is an opportunity for women in film. As I mentioned up front, we, as women, are socialized to be demure, to share credit, and not to self promote. It’s a complex part of the reasons why women in the working world advance less than their male counterparts do. So, in the spirit of The Storytellers, I’m being proactive and putting what I want into the world. I’m owning my accomplishments, espousing my virtues, and letting everyone know why I’m a valuable asset.

Alice Cullen isn’t afraid to assert herself, and in this matter, neither am I.

My family and I have lived in Forks most of our lives and have owned businesses, in some incarnation or another for much of that time. One dreary afternoon I was sitting in my shop, Alice’s Closet, when the door opens and in bounces Alice Cullen, incarnate. I literally had to do a double take. She was just a tiny bit of a thing, dressed in full baseball regalia and with the brightest yellow eyes I’d ever seen. Her hair was flipped to perfection and she had the pointy, pixie-like features that are so associated with Alice when reading the Twilight Saga.

I couldn’t believe my eyes! I’d seen cosplayers in town before, on many occasions, but none who were so perfect in the look. She glided over to the counter and introduced herself as Viktoria and told me she was here from Canada. Just listening to her talk and her mannerisms (as herself) made her even more perfect. Her wit and sense of humor were spot on and her laugh was like a tinny bell ringing. I was mesmerized, to say the least.

When my friends and I took over planning Stephenie Meyer Day in Forks we knew we wanted to bring a sense of immersion to fans, much like a trip to Disneyland so when it came time to start casting for Bella, Jake and the Cullens I knew EXACTLY who would be my Alice. Due to her real life profession she couldn’t make the first two years, but in the third year she changed jobs and I finally had my prize. I could finally share her with everyone and she delivered. She was impeccable in her looks, and interacted with fans just as I would imagined Alice would.

– Staci C., Stephenie Meyer Day Organizer

The next step for #TwilightStories is to name the top 25 prospective directors, which is exciting for those who are eagerly waiting to hear back. When these talented ladies are selected, they’re the ones who will be building a vision, assembling a cast, and ultimately, bringing the stories to life.

And for now, since I can’t see the future, all I can do is wait.

There is much more to cosplaying than being a well-constructed look-alike; you must bring the character to life! Vee has done an amazing job of exuding Alice’s fun-loving and adorable personality wherever she goes. Interactions with her make you feel as though Alice Cullen is your best friend. While you are speaking, you are her Bella. I had the privilege to interact with her in costume while I was portraying Aro at Stephenie Meyer Day in 2014. During a short demonstration, Vee was able to improvise, and end the scene perfectly in character – helping me to respond appropriately because of her being flawlessly in character. I have even referred to her out of character a few times as “Alice” without even realizing it. Vee would be a marvelous and indisputable pick for the Storytellers project.

– Shandra M., Stephenie Meyer Day and The Cullens’ Winter Escape attendee


Over the years, I’ve come to realize that much of the traffic I receive on Go Ask Alice Cullen doesn’t come from those who subscribe to my blog – it comes from Twilight-themed Google searches. Sometimes, people are directly Googling the name of my blog, but more often than not, readers stumble upon Go Ask Alice Cullen by asking questions like:

  • How can I look like Alice Cullen?
  • How do I recreate Alice Cullen’s clothes?
  • How do I style my hair like Alice Cullen?
  • Where can I buy Cullen contact lenses?

These are very general questions, ones that you can find the answers to in the form of tutorials and YouTube videos all over the Internet – and, yes, even on my blog. But the great thing about WordPress is that they track all kinds of stats and analytics – where your readers are coming from, for instance, and how many views you receive per day – including very specific Google search terms. Here’s lookin’ at you, “picture of two eyes contact lenses only” and “have you seen my baseball” – yes, those are real search terms that lead someone to Go Ask Alice Cullen.

But in the middle of some baffling terms are genuine questions that come up over and over again, so I wanted to take a stab at helping those people out.

Below are answers to the five most common search terms that lead people to my blog.




What are the brand of Alice’s flats in Twilight?

These shoes are by Sam Edelman. Their product name was Cruz Flat Sewter Shoes. They came in two colours: pewter and bronze. Unfortunately, these shoes were sold out in their screen accurate pewter colour by the time Twilight hit theatres, but bronze could still be found in store on occasion. At this point, these shoes are extremely rare and most likely to be found on eBay or clothing sites like PoshMark – if you can find them at all.

Rarity: Extremely high


What is the brand of the blue jacket that Alice wears in New Moon?

This blue jacket, as worn by Alice the morning of Bella’s birthday, is a blue smock-style jacket by Zara. It’s a loose, flowing style and has a gorgeous floral lining.

This coat is rare, but it does crop up on eBay occasionally – often at very high prices. Your best bet? Check out UK eBay. Zara is a very popular European brand, so you’re more likely to find secondhand Zara clothing on European versions of eBay. Even with shipping costs and currency conversion factored in, you’ll only pay a fraction of the cost you’d pay on American or Canadian versions of eBay.

Please note that CosplaySky offers a cost-effective replica of this jacket if you can’t find the screen accurate version. While it’s not perfect – the colour is slightly different, the general shape of the garment isn’t as accurate, and it doesn’t have the same floral lining – this is a decent replica. I purchased it myself before I found the Zara smock, and to be quite honest, non-costumers couldn’t detect a difference.

scarfCosplaySky replica: Alice Cullen’s blue Zara smock

Rarity: High – but can be surprisingly accessible if you know where to look or are willing to purchase a replica!


Where can I find Alice’s Zara star button vest, as seen in New Moon?

Alice’s star button vest, also by Zara, is definitely a rarity. In fact, only a handful of Alice costumers own one.  I’ve only ever seen one on American eBay – but I’ve seen several pop up elsewhere: on German eBay.

For the record, I don’t speak German. At all. But Google translate let me know that I should be searching for Zara weste on German eBay, and then limiting my search terms to damenmode. Give it a try – you never know what you’ll find. It’s how I got my vest!

Please note, however, that if you’re going to be buying on International versions of eBay, you WILL need the help of someone living in the host country. They may need to bid on the auction for you or have it shipped to their addresses before forwarding it on to you, especially if you don’t speak the language the auction is in. That’s part of the reason why it’s so important to have a network when you cosplay – it allows everyone to help each other out!

instaaliceMy Alice Cullen Eclipse wig, cut and styled by a hair dresser

Where can I buy an Alice Cullen wig?

The short answer here is that you can’t. I mean, there have been retailers that claimed to sell Alice Cullen-style wigs, but I’m going to be honest with you: they’re extremely low quality and styled poorly at best. You want to avoid these pre-styled wigs at all costs.

What you DO want to do is buy a human hair or synthetic wig that can withstand heat styling. Ideally, this wig would have a natural-looking part. You’ll want to look for something that’s similar in length, colour and shape to the Alice wig you’re trying to create. For reference, I bought the Duby wig in black as the base for my New Moon and Twilight wig. Then, unless you’re a hair stylist yourself, you’ll want to take this base wig to a hair stylist, armed with photos of Alice’s hair from every possible angle.

viktoria_alice_hs01 My Alice Cullen Breaking Dawn wig, cut and styled by a hair dresser

Before you book your appointment, don’t be afraid to ask for a stylist that has experience with cutting and styling wigs. You’ll have to wear the wig during your appointment so the stylist can make sure that he or she is cutting it correctly, in terms of length and shape for your face, so remember to bring a wig cap. Your own hair will need to be neatly tucked under the wig in order to avoid accidentally cutting it as well!

It’s also important to assert yourself while your wig is being cut. If you don’t like the direction you see the cut going in, SAY SOMETHING! A wig, unlike your real hair, obviously does not grow back. Investing in quality wigs and then paying to have them styled can be a costly venture, so it’s okay to voice your opinion and ask for an extra half inch to be taken off, more layers to be added, or the bangs to be choppier.

10459031_669554073116672_6005777770075807245_oMy Alice Cullen Twilight and New Moon wig, cut and styled by a hair dresser

With that said, your stylist is the professional – so if they tell you that your requests will compromise the style of the wig or risk leaving the wig netting showing, take their advice!

Last note: Your stylist will style the wig for you initially, but there may be maintenance required on your end in order to keep the wig looking great, especially if you’re going for Alice’s Twilight and New Moon looks. Human hair and heat-resistant wigs can be re-shaped and styled after they’re cut with a flat iron and hair spray, so you may want to revisit your YouTube tutorial of choice on how to achieve Alice’s wispy, flipped look.


What are the brand of the taupe shoes worn by Alice Cullen in Breaking Dawn: Part 1?

These shoes are kitten heels by Marc Jacobs, called crossed strap pumps. They were featured on the runway for Marc Jacobs in Fall 2010. There are two versions of these shoes, one in black and one in taupe (or “mud,” as Jacobs has labelled them), and Alice wears them both.


Please note that these pumps come as full heels and as kitten heels, and the higher heeled versions are much more common finds on eBay. In fact, I’ve only seen the kitten heeled version of these shoes once in each colour, and I unfortunately lost out on both auctions.

marc-by-marc-jacobs-fall-2010-crossed-straps-pumps-galleryBe aware of two things: unless you manage to find auctions that fly completely under the radar, you are VERY likely to get into a bidding war with another costumer over these shoes, and that could get pricey. Also be aware that these shoes reportedly run small, like many of Marc Jacobs’ styles, so going up by half a size may be beneficial.

It’s also important to note that as Marc Jacobs is an American brand, you’re most likely to find these shoes on US eBay.

Rarity: Extremely high


Well, that’s it for me! There are more questions, which I’ll be answering in future, but I figured this was a good place to start. Remember: If you’d like to ask me a question directly, I’m available through e-mail sent to alicethepixie@gmail.com.

Happy shopping!


When I read Twilight in 2008, I had no idea how my life would change.

I picked the book up after I broke up with my long term boyfriend; I needed a distraction and I’d always been partial to young adult fiction. The selection process was two-fold: I’d started to hear whispers about Twilight on the Internet – mainly due to casting news surrounding the film – and because I thought the cover was pretty. In typical Alice fashion, I was drawn to the beautiful imagery of a pair of alabaster hands cupping a luscious-looking apple. I’ve always been a magpie, completely enamored with shiny or beautiful things.

I tore through Twilight like a madwoman, obsessed with every word Stephenie Meyer had written. Emotionally, it was exactly what I needed – to be reading through the eyes of a protagonist who was so dearly loved at a time when I felt so alone. I remember stumbling out into a snow storm in order to purchase New Moon and Eclipse – this was before Breaking Dawn had been published – because I couldn’t stand not knowing what came next in Bella’s story. Except, to me, it wasn’t just Bella’s story. In a small, energetic pixie named Alice, I saw myself, which made me feel more at home with Twilight – and its fandom – than I ever had before with a work of fiction.

twilice3When I recommended Twilight to friends, they all offered a common thread of observation when they were finished: “Vik, when I read Twilight, I pictured Alice as you.” I won’t lie: that bit of validation inspired me to begin cosplaying as Alice. Cosplaying was already a hobby that I’d enjoyed for several years, but being able to marry it with Twilight was especially satisfying. I spent hours poring over photos of Alice in order to reconstruct her look. I visited clothing websites, eBay, wig retailers; I researched jewellers and makers of accessories; I haunted vintage stories and consignment shops. If I was going to cosplay Alice, I was going to do it correctly. And, with time – and hundreds of dollars later – I managed to assemble quite the wardrobe of screen accurate Alice clothing, wigs, accessories and contact lenses. Her style was so similar to mine that, apart from the wigs and contact lenses, it felt like more of an investment into a higher quality wardrobe than anything else.

I cosplayed Alice unofficially at various conventions in Toronto and started my blog as a means to connect with other Alice fans. Just prior to starting the blog, I met Christilynn of Inside Bella’s Closet, and we became fast friends. After months of talking online, we decided to take a trip to Forks together in December 2010. Despite never having met in person, we bonded instantly upon meeting at the airport in Seattle. To this day, she’s one of my greatest friends – a true blessing in my life.

twilice21Through Christilynn I was introduced to Staci Chastain, a local businesswoman in Forks who was going to be taking over the planning of Stephenie Meyer Day in 2011. We walked into Staci’s shop, “Alice’s Closet,” during our trip – and when we left, we had been recruited to portray Alice and Bella for the event. To hear Staci tell it, we were Alice and Bella in the flesh, and meeting us was an experience she wanted to share with fans. Staci is another friend I would consider to be a blessing. We talk every day – about anything and everything – and without her, I wouldn’t know so many of the amazing people in my life.

Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to make it to Stephenie Meyer Day until 2013 – but once I did, my hobby of portraying Alice really took off. Stephenie Meyer herself attended the event that year, and she praised my portrayal of Alice and my dedication to the character. I was invited back to Stephenie Meyer Day in 2014, and I’m proud to say that I’ll be returning to the event – which is now called Forever Twilight in Forks – in 2015 as well. I’ve also appeared at two events in Gatlinburg, Tennessee: Mystic Falls at Twilight Girls Getaway and The Cullens’ Winter Escape. The people I’ve met through Twilight and the wonderful places I’ve traveled to wouldn’t have been possible without Alice Cullen.

jalice9Every event calls for an entire weekend of bringing Alice Cullen to life for fellow Twilight fans – and knowing how to walk a fine line between interacting with them as the character and interacting with them as myself. It required a set of acting and improvisational skills I didn’t realize I had until the first time I did it. I remember being so nervous at the very first event I appeared at: a meet and greet at Stephenie Meyer Day 2013. My palms were sweating; I’m sure Josh Goff, who played Jasper Hale, was completely disgusted as he held my hand. But as I approached the first fan with a bubbly, “Hi! I’m Alice Cullen!” I began to relax. It wasn’t hard or scary, pretending to be Alice; it was fun.

So what does that have to do with The Storytellers: The New Voices of The Twilight Saga?

When I first learned about the contest, I was incredibly excited. Here was an opportunity for women in film – and Twilight fans! – to uniquely make their mark on the Twilight universe. And maybe it was my opportunity, as a professional Alice Cullen character actor, to make my mark as well. Here was a chance to share my love for Twilight, its fandom, and my favourite character on a much broader scale. Here was a chance to demonstrate how much I understand Alice and pay homage to the wonderful opportunities she’s given me.

In talking to prospective directors for The Storytellers: The New Voices of The Twilight Saga, they all wanted to see video of me as Alice – and rightfully so. Unfortunately, there’s very little video taken at Stephenie Meyer Day or the other events I’ve attended; people take an abundance of photos, but that’s about it. So, if I wanted to create an accurate portrayal of myself as Alice, I would have to get creative – and, after years of attempting to conceptualize YouTube videos for Alice, that’s how “Dear Bella” was born. I needed a reason for Alice to be speaking directly to a camera in a low-budget set up, and that’s how I settled on the video diary concept. In order to flex my “Alice” muscles, I decided to completely improvise every episode and attempt to do each video in one take. Somehow, writing a script felt inorganic compared to the improv required at the events I’d worked for.

I’m proud of the results so far. I released Dear Bella #2 on YouTube yesterday – click the image below to view the video – and I’ve received incredibly good feedback. So while these videos may not actually earn me a role in a Storytellers production – unlike Alice, I can’t actually see the future – I’m having a lot of fun making them in the process. Is my portrayal of Alice perfect? Of course not! But it’s Alice as I see her, and being creative within the realm of Twilight reminds me why I fell in love with this fandom in the first place.

This is the best fandom is the world – and I’m lucky that it’s given me the freedom to be one frightening little monster.



Dear Bella: A YouTube project

Hi, ladies:

You know, I’ve struggled for years to think of ways to bring Alice content to YouTube. There were already so many Alice-related tutorials regarding her hair, makeup and clothing options that it seemed like an over-saturation to add more clutter to that segment. More importantly is the fact that although I love Alice, I’m really not an expert when it comes to hair styling or makeup artistry, so it would have felt more than a little disingenuous to attempt to dispense that kind of advice.

However, with the rise of The Storytellers: New Voices of The Twilight Saga, I wanted to make something that would really showcase my love and understanding of Alice’s character. I’ve portrayed her professionally at four events so far – with a fifth, Forever Twilight in Forks, happening this September – but there isn’t an abundance of footage out there that shows my acting capabilities as Alice.

So I created some.

“Dear Bella” is a YouTube series that I conceptualized in order to offer a “behind the scenes” look at what Alice was thinking and feeling during integral points of The Twilight Saga. In it, Alice speaks directly to the camera in video diary-format, offering Bella her unique perspective on key situations throughout each novel.

The first episode was posted this weekend and starts at the very beginning: when Alice sees Bella becoming part of the Cullen family after Edward makes his decision to return to Forks from Denali. It was shot in one take and was 100% improvised, which I’m very proud of.

The next installments will follow the chronology of Twilight, and a new episode will be coming this weekend! Click the photo below to see Dear Bella #1 – I’d love to hear your thoughts!



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